Tonight I am copying Abbersnail and writing a list of things I haven’t said out loud. Maybe I should have said some of these things, maybe it’s good that I didn’t, but here they are without any further commentary.
1. You think that I was really rude to you, but I was actually trying my absolute hardest to be polite to you even though I hate you.
2. I looked up to you, so thank you for being so supportive.
3. I’m not sorry for disliking you, but I am sorry for being so mean to you.
4. I wish I had ignored you.
5. I wish I hadn’t been afraid to share more of myself with you.
6. I still think of you every once in a while, and I try to remember the good parts of our friendship, not just the bad.
7. I made the mistake of trusting you, but I won’t make that mistake with you again.
8. If we never speak to each other again, I will be a happier person.
9. I am so sorry that I didn’t keep your secret.
10. I acted stupid because I was jealous of the attention you were getting, and I hope that you have forgotten all about it.
OOOH, this is an excellent idea…..
BRAVO! Isn’t this liberating? I love it!
This is very cool. I like number one especially.
Ouch. Glad you got that off your chest!
Bet this felt good! I like “I wish I had ignored you.” That seems applicable to so many people in life…
This is a very cool idea. If I knew you FOR REALS I would be obsessing over whether any of them were for me, though. OBSESSING, I say!
Great list! I need to use number 8 for a few people, I think.
Ohhhhh how liberating!
I like this idea. I think I’d need to work up the courage to be honest enough with myself to even attempt this.
I did this too and it felt great!
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OH, I love this. I love it so much. I think the first one is my favorite, but they’re all good.
I like this idea too. I don’t think you’re a hidden ball of anything. Unless you’re yarn, which would be kinda cute actually.
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I like #9. I once blurted out something I shouldn’t have, and the worst thing is, the person whose secret I spilled was someone whose trust I had been painfully and slowly gaining over many months, after they went through a break-up. I felt like such a jerk. It was a long time ago, but thinking about it still makes me squirm.